Wouldn’t it be great if we could bottle up our confidence to save for when we need it most?
I thought this the other day. I’d woken up feeling so good. You know when you feel really motivated and like you can achieve anything. I love those days but the only problem is they don’t seem to last very long.
I go through phases of feeling like anything is possible, when you feel like nothing can stop you. When I go through these types of phases it’s so hard to believe how down I’ve felt before. It’s like looking in on someone else’s life. I can’t get my head around it. It’s like my mind completely blanks out the bad feelings and thoughts and I can’t imagine ever feeling low again. It’s so hard to explain and I think you’ll only know what I mean if you’ve felt it before.
It’s a nice feeling, it feels like that’s the real me, the way I used to be. She comes back to remind me that she’s still there and it is possible to feel normal again.
I think that’s one of the most important things to remember. No matter how down you’re feeling or how bad things seem, the feelings will not last forever.
That’s why, when I’m feeling good, I will keep saying it to myself. Reminding myself that yesterday I never thought I’d feel normal again but today I’m like a completely different person. It’s so easy to do when you’re having a good day. The difficulty comes when you’re having a bad day and you have to try with everything you’ve got to convince yourself that you will be ok and you will get through it.
When you’re going through one of your bad phases it’s almost impossible to see the positives in anything. I find a good way of helping with this is, on a good day, write down all the positives, no matter how small, so you can go over them when you’re feeling down. And this way you can remind yourself of all the little things to be positive about.