So after months of working on my blog and going back and forth between whether or not to publish the posts, I finally decided last week to make the blog public.
I honestly did not expect the response I got. Everyone was so supportive and I had so many lovely comments and kind messages, some from people I’ve never even spoken to before which was so nice.
The thing that confirmed I needed to make the blog public was that just before I did I sent the posts to one of my friends. I asked her to proof read it and tell me what she thought of it. I was not expecting the response I received from her. She text me and said “Shan, you have to publish this, something happened to me when I was 18 and I’ve never spoken about it and because of your blog, I now want to talk about it”. She then continued by telling me her story.
I realised that the reason I wanted to start the blog in the first place was that I wanted people to speak out about what they’re going through or have been through in the past and for them to realise that they’re not alone. My friend was one of the only people who had read my blog and I had already achieved what I set out to. It confirmed to me that what I was doing was worth it and I definitely needed to publish it.
It also made me think, I’ve known my friend for years and she didn’t know my story and I didn’t know hers so no one knows what anyone else is going through which is why it’s so important to talk about these things.
The one thing that I would say is that I wish I’d of spoke out about this sooner as I have spent so many weekends sat in the house on my own thinking I had no one. I’d spend all my time on Instagram seeing everyone else enjoying themselves with loads of friends and I felt like I had no friends. Since making the blog public I have realised I actually have so many friends and so many people that are there for me. Depression definitely makes you feel isolated and it makes you believe that you’re the only one who feels this way when that’s not the case at all.
I just want to say thank you so much for everyones kind words since making the blog public and lets keep the conversation going and help raise awareness. No one should ever feel alone and it’s so surprising how many people are actually there for you and want the best for you and you don’t even realise it.